“I was in so much pain”: Jada Pinkett Smith Confesses She Tried to Kill Herself, Says One Thing Saved Her Life

Jada Pinkett Smith admitted she was hit by a massive amount of depression and would have killed herself if it had not been for Ayahuasca

What made Jada Pinkett Smith rethink her decision to commit suicide?


  • Jada Pinkett Smith admitted she was hit by a massive amount of depression and having recurring suicidal thoughts.
  • Her son, Jaden Smith made her aware of the Ayahuasca ceremony which changed her life.
  • Jaden Smith shared that using psychedelics helped him improve his relationship with his siblings.
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There was a time when Jada Pinkett Smith almost killed herself. Will Smith’s wife admitted to having recurring suicidal thoughts. According to the actress, she would have killed herself if it had not been for Ayahuasca. The Red Table Talk co-host who has also been subjected to several headlines in the past praised the psychedelic drug for her survival.

Will and Jada Pinkett Smith
Will Smith and Jada Pinkett Smith

No matter how perfect it looks, the glamorous lives of Hollywood stars often hide many unbelievable secrets. Jada Pinkett Smith’s life also took a dark turn after 40 when she faced some of the worst mental health problems. She started to look for ways to kill herself before her son made her aware of the Ayahuasca ceremony.

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How did Jada Pinkett Smith defeat her depression?

Jada Pinkett Smith and Willow Smith
Jada Pinkett Smith with daughter Willow Smith

Jada Pinkett Smith had a very rough phase in her life when she turned 40. The Nutty Professor actress started to hear voices and looked for ways to kill herself. In an interview with People, she spoke of her painful phase where nothing seemed more comfortable than death- “When I turned 40, I was in so much pain. I couldn’t figure a way out besides death. So I made a plan.”

The actress who will soon release her memoir titled Worthy admitted that she was hit by a massive amount of depression and was all set to plot her death. Pinkett Smith didn’t want her children to think that their mother had committed suicide so she searched for ways to make it look like an accident.

“But, while I was really living the dream, I hit a huge wall — a massive amount of depression. I think that I looked at having outside sources to supplement for the voids that I was feeling inside. The voices were incoming. ‘Just kill yourself. You’re not worth anything, you ain’t s–t’. I started looking for places, cliffs where I could have an accident because I didn’t want my kids to think that their mother had committed suicide.”

It was only due to her son Jaden, the Bad Moms actress came to know about the psychedelic drug. Jaden Smith made his mom hear the experience of his friend’s dad’s therapeutic experience and wanted Pinkett Smith to try it as well. She praised Ayahuasca for saving her life- “Ayahuasca helped me, it gave me a new intimate relationship with myself that I had never had before.”


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Earlier Jaden Smith also spoke about how his mother introduced the whole family to psychedelics. According to the interviews, the entire family had a pleasant experience with psychedelics.

Jada Pinkett Smith introduced her entire family to psychedelics

Jada Pinkett Smith with family
Jada Pinkett Smith with her family

Jada Pinkett Smith shares two children Jaden and Willow with Will Smith along with the eldest Trey from his first marriage with Sheree Zampino. At a Psychedelic Science conference in Denver, Jaden publicly admitted how his mother introduced psychedelics to the entire family. The news raised quite a buzz on the internet.


Jaden also admitted (via PageSix) that using psychedelics has helped him improve his relationship with his siblings and form a closer bond.

“Siblings can argue so much and fight so much, and lord knows me and my siblings have done so much of that in the past. But the level of love and empathy that I can feel for them inside of the [psychedelic] experiences and outside of the experiences has been something that’s profound and beautiful.”

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On the other hand, Will Smith has also followed in the footsteps of the remaining family members and praised psychedelics. He admitted to doing Ayahuasca 14 times in Peru for over two years. He admitted that ayahuasca made him believe in himself in tackling every situation in his life with ease.



Written by Subham Mandal

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Subham Mandal is currently working as a content writer for FandomWire with an ardent interest in the world of pop culture. He has written more than 1000 articles on different spheres of modern pop culture and is currently pursuing a Bachelor of Arts degree in English. He’s also an experienced student journalist having demonstrated work experience with the Times of India. He aspires to be a column writer in the future.